I was gonna..

I was going to write yesterday. I really was!  This is what prevented me: I got off work at 1:30. Bought fruit at work. Went to Sunshine Stationary behind my work.. (more on that later..lol) Went to the Post Office, the Goodwill Thrift Store to donate stuff and buy books.. and then home! When I got home finally, (it was about 4) I had wifey chores to do, which took me awhile. (about 3 hours of them!) Truthfully, I did some hubby chores too, but he's been working long hours, and is super-tired, so I didn't mind.

I checked the mail, washed 3 loads of laundry, a load of dishes, watered my plants, filled the dogs food and water, swept the kitchen floor, took out the trash, made hubby's lunch for the next day, and started dinner... all before 6 pm.

6pm rolls around, and hubby made it home from work. I am working on dinner, and laundry. He looks TIRED. We pretty much just ate dinner, showered and went to bed. By 8pm. So yeah.. no blog from me.

So here is what I going to blog!  

I have a pen pal! Yay!  Here's how it happened: I have monthly breakfast/brunch's with my mother-in-law. (We try to at least.)  We go out, and eat at a nearby restaurant, and talk about what is going on in our lives. She initiated it. She told me her mother-in-law (hubby's grandma) did it with her, and she is carrying on the tradition. She pays for the meal, which her mother-in-law did as well. I feel a little funny, having her pay for everything, each time... so I am figuring out something on that respect.. Maybe I pay the tip? hmm.. more on this later. She also said that when the whole family would go out to dinner together, the father-in-law (hubby's grandpa) paid. 

Anyways, we have done this several times. It has made our relationship stronger I feel. I love it. I sometimes hear stories about my hubby as a kid, that I haven't heard yet. She gives me new ideas, and encouragement on other things too.  This last time we went I told her about my desire to change myself. My weight mainly.  I also told her about some interesting things my friends are doing; one of which is writing actual letters to each other in the mail.

Guess what? She wrote me a letter. An encouraging letter! It made me excited to receive a REAL letter in the mail. It was on some pretty paper too! Now, I get to write one back! This is where Sunshine Stationary comes in. I went and bought some awesome stationary. It has flowers and butterflies on it. No joke. It is lovely. When I saw it, I had to have it... When hubby saw it, he laughed.  This is was the same exact stationary he had written his 1 year "paper" anniversary "love letter" that I asked for.   I obviously like the paper! lol.

Aaaannd, I weighed myself this morning.. It is the start of day 3, and I have lost 3.1 lbs. Probably  water... but who cares?

New Beginnings..

So... It's been awhile since I've blogged... but today, I'm getting back into the swing of things. I'm also did another thing today that was long overdue.... I began the long journey to healthier, happier me.  This blog is going to be brutally honest. Reader beware.

I am in the worst shape of my life. There, I said it.  I stepped on the scale this morning, (which I have been avoiding like the plague),to discover I  weigh just as much as I did when I started binge drinking and eating in  answer to my grief over my Grandparents deaths in 2007. It ain't a nice number folks, and I wasn't shocked. My clothes don't lie, and neither do my mirrors. My husband does :) He's sweet.  I know that a lot of the reason the weight has been put on this is stress eating. I turn to food as a comfort response. Particularly carbs and sweets. I also read and eat. AWFUL habit. No more!

So, I know the truth. I am FAT.  My feet, ankles, knees, back, hips... etc. hurt. I need to lose weight to feel better.  I want to look better too. I want to wear my skinny clothes again. Plus I want to run around with my little nieces.

I have been working myself up to do this awhile. I made a Facebook event.. and invited certain friends and family, who I knew would not let me falter, and who I also knew  had information that was pertinent to what I needed.... and voila... I now have a plan. Workout buddies, a personal trainer, a meal plan, meal prep, a garden, walking the dogs, an elliptical (free!?!), and a support network. As I lose more weight I will most likely join a gym.

So today, my personal trainer Karissa kicked my butt. It was great!  I remarked how out of shape I was. She said, "It took years to put the weight on, right?"  She was really upbeat, and awesome.
My legs hurt right now, but I feel mentally and physically energized. Boy am I dumb for waiting this long to do this.  Going to break this food addiction! :)