New Beginnings..

So... It's been awhile since I've blogged... but today, I'm getting back into the swing of things. I'm also did another thing today that was long overdue.... I began the long journey to healthier, happier me.  This blog is going to be brutally honest. Reader beware.

I am in the worst shape of my life. There, I said it.  I stepped on the scale this morning, (which I have been avoiding like the plague),to discover I  weigh just as much as I did when I started binge drinking and eating in  answer to my grief over my Grandparents deaths in 2007. It ain't a nice number folks, and I wasn't shocked. My clothes don't lie, and neither do my mirrors. My husband does :) He's sweet.  I know that a lot of the reason the weight has been put on this is stress eating. I turn to food as a comfort response. Particularly carbs and sweets. I also read and eat. AWFUL habit. No more!

So, I know the truth. I am FAT.  My feet, ankles, knees, back, hips... etc. hurt. I need to lose weight to feel better.  I want to look better too. I want to wear my skinny clothes again. Plus I want to run around with my little nieces.

I have been working myself up to do this awhile. I made a Facebook event.. and invited certain friends and family, who I knew would not let me falter, and who I also knew  had information that was pertinent to what I needed.... and voila... I now have a plan. Workout buddies, a personal trainer, a meal plan, meal prep, a garden, walking the dogs, an elliptical (free!?!), and a support network. As I lose more weight I will most likely join a gym.

So today, my personal trainer Karissa kicked my butt. It was great!  I remarked how out of shape I was. She said, "It took years to put the weight on, right?"  She was really upbeat, and awesome.
My legs hurt right now, but I feel mentally and physically energized. Boy am I dumb for waiting this long to do this.  Going to break this food addiction! :)